Everydayness. Simple word; complex meaning. It's one of the most important words that come to mind when I think about diabetes. There's no break, there's no, 'Oh, I'll worry about it tomorrow.'
Sometimes I wish I could have a vacation from this disease that consumes my life. No...if I go on a vacation, the D has to accompany me. Talk about invasive!
When I'm sick, it doesn't go away. No...then I need to just worry, 'Is my blood sugar being affected?' and prick my fingers just a zillion more times a day to make sure I don't have an unexpected high or low!
Pile on those emotions of sadness, anger, worry, fear, panic.......they all affect the 'big D'.
Sometimes I wish I could leave it at home. 'Oops, I forgot it.' Damn you pancreas for failing me. It's ok, I'm tough. I can't.....won't let myself be affected by it.
Thank you diabetes world, for letting me vent.